~miss~miss~miss~miss~

heeyyoooo!!!!
yea I already at this 'haunted college'!!!!
damn bored!!!!
arrggghhh!!!:((
miss mama..miss abah..miss kcik..miss haziq..miss humaira..miss all d mr.ngetnget..miss my lovely room..miss to jog..miss to shoppe..miss to travel.. miss mama's cook..miss ethg and everubody that I used to do and spent during the hols..dangerously miss it so much!!:((
today was my first day for my 2nd sem..
woke up early in the morning and it was so challenging as like fear factor which I ahd to use old water for shower...huh....damn cold!!!plezz bring my water heater ere....arrgghh!!!:(
erm nway my lecture begin with Scince subject...
damn!!!seriously my mind juz 50% for the lecture and the rest was flying and keep thinking other things especially home!!!!
erm nk blik!!!plezzzz.....:(
nway todays lecture not really heavy and quite excited to see all my b.Ed tesl gurls..:)
the clasz quite havoc as each of them so damn excited to share what they did during the hols plus quite a long time didnt see each other and it seem likfe 'jejak kasih'..huhuhu..:P
btw this was the most crucial things for me and obviously about the food!!!
arrghh!!plezz my stomach couldnt except the food ere...
ermmm plezzz bring mama's cook to me now!!!
I was damn starving!!!!:((
I had my nap today which I'd skip it for quite sometime and today I did it ere as I couldnt slept last nyte and obviously bcoz I didnt slept on my lovely bed..uuwwwaaa!!!:((
nway I did cover back the extra energy that I got which I went to jog and aerobic!!!yeayy!!!:))
ahhhaaa...cant get rid from those activities even I already ere...huhuhu...
yea say yes to a healthy life!!!:)
and lastly now I keep wondering what should I do for tonight so obviously I do visit 'all I have to give' and updating it...:)
last but not least is I keep counting the seconds to go back home!!!!
~miss~miss~miss~miss~miss~

new sem + new spirit

switch to STUDY MODE....
yea..new sem with new spirit and full of determination and hopefully ethg will goes fine and perfectly..insyallah..:)
huh..this was the most scariest part in my life....huhuhu..
going back to the 'haunted college'...
arghh!!!damn!!
nway I must be positive for time being...
yes nadia...
it just for 4months to survive in that 'haunted college' and then you will be free!!!!
wuhooo!!!!:))
alrite seem I had to switch to the study mode and that the sign that I will not frequently updating 'all I have to give'....cm la hols nie slalu sgt update kan..hohoho...
but dun worry my schedule for every weekend will be as usual as I used to do....huhuhu...
nway do wish me all the best for this coming semester and do pray for me kay...
love you all so muchh!!!mmmwwaahhh!!!:)

~sayonara~

heyyyoooo....
huh..at last the hols was over!!!
damn sad!!:((
nway all the memories and experiences during this hols was perfectly closed to my mind and obviously to my heart as well..miss it so much!!!:((
begin with cj's moments then came back to my lovely hometown a.k.a seremban then switch to s'pore and moved to penang then frequently travel to kl...
huh!!damn miss those moments!!!
and obviously those moments was being so perfect..precious and lovely when all the beloved people were with me and even shared those fantastic moments with me...
arrrghhh!!!how superb and miracle moments I had!!!
btw once a story begin surely it wll end....
so now ethg was just memories and will be forever in my life till I'm no more...
thanx alot to all my beloved gorgeous and stunning people in my life escpecially my dearest family as made my life so complete and made me felt extremely secured and comfort during this hols...
and obviously a really2 big thank to all my 'nyawa' who all away came back from London and made lots and lots of surprised for me till I couldnt breath anymore..huhuhu...ya do miss you all so much!!!!!esp the cutest and charming Baby Harry...aunty ya miss you so much dear and do take care mummy kay.dun nothy2 and do get lots of pampered from mummy and daddy before a new little princess come-out..hehehhee..*wink*...
and thanx alot to someone that I really love at one time and just let the time decide it..thanx to you especially those sacfrifices that you did to me..I do appreciate it..thanx and thanx alot...
last but not least thanx alot to all my 'devil' a.k.a all the mr.ngetngets....yea..we really had a great hols this time...a long journey+non-stop laugh every day..wahhahaa....damn miss those moments!!!
huh....seriously I really had a great hols not only this time but almost every hols that I had...
obviously I really glad and felt so appreciated as all my beloved and dearest people were always by my side and they totally made my life....:)
I really love you all so much!!!!!mmmwwwaaahhhh!!!!
till we see again in the next hols!!!
~sayonara~

............:)

holala....
erm quite sometime aite didnt update 'all I have to give'..
huh...damn busy!!!cewwahhh!!!:P
yea obviously I was superb busy with all my schedules...huhuhu...
spend time with my dearest fwens+family hour+shopping of coz+dance+travelling+laugh..laugh and laugh...
life getting fine and smooth as time goes by..wuhooo!!!:))
yea as I dun wanna think so much about it..just let the time decide...*wink*
as what I concerned now was I wanna give lots and lots of happiness and excitement to my life as well as to my 'pity' heart...
so now I still cheerish the moment now as my hols just left for a few days..:((
see yea...mwaahhhh~:)

*_* MAMMA MIA *_*

Mamma Mia~Dancing Queen~Super Trouper~Honey Honey~Money Money~Voulez Vouz~I Have A Dream~Thank You For The Music~Slipping Through My Fingers~Winner Takes It All~Take A Chance On Me~

ahhhaa.....

the memories still fresh in my mind...:))

yea..I went to see the Mamma Mia live at Istana Budaya...

it was damn superb!!!:))

and it took lots and lots of memories when all the beloved person were around you...huhuhu..

went with my dearest auties...sisters..dancemate and obviously my stunning and gorgeous fwens a.k.a all the mr.&mrs. London...wuhoo!!!

btw back to the theatre...

actually the movie was more exciting as compared to the theatre...

erm in my opinion the movie more enjoyable maybe bacause of the cast..

as compared to the theatre, the performers were not the actual cast from the drama and that make the theatre a litle bit different especially on the presentation but overall Mamma Mia still walllaaa!!!:))

love the songs and the choregraphy damn much!!!

and obviously all of us especially my dancemates and me was keep watching and trying to memorize the choreography...huhuhu..

da kate dancers..mestila nk 'copy-cat'..*wink*

the moment was damn precious especially when I could share it with all my beloved people...

thanx alot to all my stunning and gorgeous buddies for making those moments so precious and it will be forever being apart of the chapter of my life..mwahhh!!!!

and now I was missing the moment so much!!!!:((

and this was the only picture I could upload as the others had some technical error but dun worry as I will upload soon..:P

ready for MAMMA MIA:))

adioss!!!!:))

*_* I'm BACK!! *_*

holalala!!!!
Im homie!!!!!
yea..even not really homie as I still got many plans to go...loooking forward for MAMMA MIA!!!wahhahaa...:)
erks...really2 and damnly tired as many things happened and came up and it out of my control....
adooii!!!
btw overall, my hols was superb!!!:D
first of all...I was felt so relieved and satisfied esp when I managed to meet and spend all the moments in my life with all my beloved ones...ehmm...terubat jgak rindu...:)
yea..obviously we really had an awesome moments there...
and the must do-list once I was in pennag was EAT!!!
ermmm the food was totally damn delicious esp when it was a home cook!!!
erkk..I felt like bloated!!!ahhhaaa.....*wink*
and this was the most memorable thingy which is I was spent my moments at penang by the sea..
yea...we went to Batu Feringhi as my daddy got his condo there...
so all my buddies and I had spent 2 nytes at daddy's condo and we really had an amazing moments there which till now it still fresh on my mind...:)
swim+beach volleyball+surfing+jet ski+lepak2 by the seashore+futsal..
arghhh!!!it was damn memorable and amazing moments!!!
besides, I was felt really relaxed and relieved esp during nyte when I was spent most of my nytes by the seashore...
and those moments was so pleasant and meaningful as lately I got lots and lots thingy to think of and to settle of and guess what.....
ermm till now I still couldnt find the right answers for those prob that I thought...sigh...
btw my heart and even my mind felt so relaxed and calmed as I managed to have some space for my life and being far from those problems...
and the most precious thingy was I never felt lonely during these hols as all my gorgeous buddies were closed with me and being so caring and most of all being as a 'source' of laugh..smile and happiness for me...thanx alot dudes!!!
now I realized what actually the meaning of true happiness..laugh and smile for me esp when all of my beloved ones by my side...
and I also realized that all this while I didnt give any chance for myself to have some space to breath and even to enjoy every single things in my life..
besides, I really tried so hard to pleased and to make others life so enjoyable and meaningful even I was being hurt and being treated exactly like a rubbish....
argh!!!it was really crueled things that I ever did to myself and that also the reason why it so hard for me to feel what actually the true and chaste happiness is...
ehhhmmm...apela aku da merepek2 nie.....:P

okay2....nway overall as I said that my hols was so superb!!!

150% great and excellent!!!ahhhaaaha...

nway...we had our last nyte at mummy's place and obviously I will have my shopping tyme before went back home...ehhhee...
just went to Queensbay and Gurney to have some shoppe!!!
yeayy!!!what a lovely tops and a handbag I got and of coz a perfume for the Christmas...ehhee...:P
btw I had to go back on Saturday and must be at Seremban before 8pm as I had an orchestra meeting and it also involved all of my buddies...
then, we started our journey and this time I had to join my buddies...
and it really an awesome journey as all of us was getting 'sewel' all along the journey...
ahhhaa...lots and lots of memories during the journey and really2 tickle my tummy to laugh..laugh..and laugh...:))
btw I really hope that I willl have this kind of hols in every single moments in my life..huhuhu...
and lastly thanx alot to mummy+daddy+mak and obviously my beloved buddies as made my life so meaningful and complete...thanx and thanx...
goona miss those moments so much!!!mwahhhh!!!

p/s: pics still in progress...:P

~Let TIME decide~

When you said forever, you meant a few months. When I said forever, I meant every day until I died. When you said always, you meant until you couldn’t handle it anymore. When I said always, I meant until time ended. When you said you loved me, you meant I was no different from any other girl. When I said I loved you, I meant I had never felt what I felt for you.

Tears may be dried up, but the heart—never.

The ones that you love the most are usually the ones that hurt you the most.

Finding someone you love and who loves you back is a wonderful, wonderful feeling. But finding a true soul mate is an even better feeling. A soul mate is someone who understands you like no other, loves you like no other, will there for you forever, no matter what. They say that nothing lasts forever, but I am a firm believer in the fact that for some, love lives on even after they're gone...

Don't be afraid to fall in love. Open your heart and follow where it leads you.

Love is subjective.There's no plan for love.Love will be easy to come as well easy to go.And grab it once it come to you as it come for some reasons.

We did fall in love with someone for many years but somehow rather if that person is not yours and therefore it will never be yours.

Love is not cruel but love will be cruel to a person who treats it cruelly.

It hard to get someone who really understand you and truly love you.And it easy to get someone who easily love you as well hurt you.

The one you love most is the one you hate most.

It takes a million of years to raised the love and it just take a few seconds to kill the love.

~off to holiday~

holala!!!
juz drop by to say bye bye..
ahhhaa...
yea..I'm off to holiday as my hols just left for few days....:(
so now hols to the fullest!!!!:))
need some space to breath and to live...
means tha I will off from blogging for quite sometime and dont worry as I will be back soon...
adioss!!!

~drop by~

holala...
erm quite sometyme didnt update 'all I have to give'..
juz a matter of time plus the lappy was in the 'workshop'....huhuhu...
nway nothing much I do
as usual hang out with my dearest fwen+spend tyme with my beloved family+shoppe+salon+jog+dance+movie..:)
still had my marvelous hols and hope it forever...erm maybe juz in my dreams...*wink*
btw lately I was having some feelings confusion and made me felt damn miserable..
yea..what I can say was let the time decide for me...and even for us...huhh...
think I should stop ere as dun have any feeling for blogging...
see yea later..mwahhxx!!!

HARI RAYA AIDILADHA BAKERY..:)

nadia : kakcik..tomorrow kite wat cake nak???all the ingredients sume da ade..jom ek?
kakcik : cake ape???
nadia : obviously la cake chocolate!!!
mama : buat la cake orange sekali...
kakcik : yela....tapi kene tolong kakcik...
yeaahhhaaa!!!
that how I 'tackled' my kakcik yesterday after cleaned and set up our new room..:D
so today I had a mission with my dear kakcik since tomorrow is Hari Raya Aidiladha...
nway still had our tytely sleep before starting our day..huhuhu...
btw this is not our first tyme bake a cake besides it already be a common thingy to both of us since we will always made a cookies and baked a cake during Hari Raya Aidilfitri too...huhuhu..
but still we need a guide from our profesional chief a.k.a mama and need to remind that mama has many 'pantang larang' to bake a cake and also cookies...
huh..mmg mama sgt2 la fussy when comes to cook but obviously the result will marvelous and superb taste!!!:D
so started baking after lunch...
unfortunately the mixer couldnt work and we stucked there..
back to the story..
mama and kakcik went to buy the the mixer and we started bake the cake...
really enjoy and feel fun as it was an easy thingy to do..cewwahhh!!!:)
and at last we managed to settle out or baking thingy around 6pm....
yeayyy!!!
but still got a little bit thingy to complete which is the topping for the chocolate cake and this was the most my favourite 'job' to do...
waahhhaa!!!how heaven the chocolate taste especially the chocolate freshly cook and made from a superb brand of cookingchocolate!!!yeaahhhaa!!!:D
the taste damnly tempting!!!
nway my nephew and nieces were really enjoyed the cake esp my little lydia as she was exactly like her makteh nadia a.k.a 'hantu' chocolate...eheheehee...
settle evthg around 9pm..
felt extremely happy and satisfied with our baking thingy today...
and obviously tonyte I spent my moments with my dearest family...
plus we did some crazy and enjoyable thingy..we danced!!!!!
ahhhaa..obviously we did our 'poco-poco'!!!
dangerously exciting and plus with the most 'terrible' laugh by kakcik..*wink*
and this was the most precious and endless memories for me...
thank God as I born in this superb and greatest family...
nadia always love u all!!mwahhh!!
and lastly I wanna take this oppurtunity to say 'Selamat HAri Raya Aidilaha" to all the Muslims..
and let us pray for all the victims of the landslides at Bukit Antarabangsa..
hope ethg will goes fine..insyallah...:)

Hari Raya Aidiladha Bakery

new look of 192 and welcome to my new room..:)

December 6, 2008....

erm really exciting to type this post...huhuhu..:D
nway today was my 'lazy' day!!

ahhhaa....seem like everyday was my 'lazy' day...kuikuikui...

btw still did house chores..moping and vacum since the curtain person was coming to set up a curtain at my new room and the other room...

and obviously met my hunny for awhile at our favourite 'I'm Loving It' place....:D

btw today also my alang came back home after 2 month didnt came back since my 192 house went through some renovation...

so now wanna share some chronology plus the picture of the renovation work and the new look of 192 house...

the renovation started on 30/10/2008 till 22/11/2008...

actually not really a huge renovation just a little bit make-over to the house plus some maintenance work since I had stayed in this house since year 2000...

so now it the moment to give some new look to the house...

mama decided to add another 2 rooms since my family getting large now with the 'new little cute comers'..hehehehe...

and besides mama wanna to do some maintenance work..change the door+build another new kitchen cabinet+the decoration..

so at last everything complete...
nway don't ever talk about the mess and dust during the renovation works bcoz obviously it damn terrible and horrible..@@***###@@@:((

and that why I had said in my older post that I was being such a 'wanita sejati' during this hols since have to clear all the mess plus no maid..

arghhh!!!damn exhausted and terrible but a liitle bit excited and happy since cant hardly wait to see the outcome...

so today, 6/12/2008....ethg was complete!!!:))

and here some of the pictures of chronology of the renovation...

During the renovation....

the renovation 99% complete

housekeeping

192 still in chaos

After renovation...

Okay, now the chronology of my new room.......

During the renovation...

still in process to set up the bedroom
still in progress...

Mission completed
presenting MY NEW BEDROOM...

the console table for cosmetics..

my favourite mirror & the wardrobe....:)

exclusively belong to ms.ira & ms.yaya...

lastly a really big thanx to mama and abah for the lovely room...love mama and abah so much...mwahhh!!!

nway, there's anoher one more room but still in progress...so I will update later kay...adios....:)

that all from aunty yaya & julia farhana..:)

welcome back memories:)

still woke up quite late and slept at 7am...huhuhu...
first of all did some of house chores..vacum+put a new carpet...
after all today I had a 'date' with d "nget nget"....*wink*
planned to watch movie after quite sometime didnt do so especially with all my dearest "nget nget"...
and managed to watch twilight or transporter 3..
so around 1.30pm mr.rfaidhi nget nget fetched me and we went to jj...
and at last we decide to watch transporter 3 as twilight already been started..:(
nway I dun give a damn coz as long as I can watch movie today, it will be the most greatest satisfaction for me..huhuhu...
yea..'Transporter 3" was a superb action movie!!!
the stunt was damn superb okayy....
so everybody make sure dun miss to watch this movie..:)
btw i was damn cold in that cinema as it was raining today..
mmg kejung glers kay dalam cinema and thanx alot for some of 'natural' heat..huhuhu..:D
finished our movie around 4.a0pm and had some chit-chatting with d "nget nget"...
really miss this moment as we didnt see each other for quite sometime bcoz of our commitment towards study...
so I really had a precious moment and really glad that the memories was coming back..:D
thanx alot to d "nget nget"....
and a warm welcome to the memories!!!:))
lastly, here a preview of "Transporter 3"...

Frank Martin has been pressured into transporting Valentina, the kidnapped daughter of Leonid Vasilev, the head of the Environmental Protection Agency for the Ukraine, from Marseilles through Stuttgart and Budapest until he ends up in Odessa on the Black Sea. Along the way, with the help of Inspector Tarconi, Frank has to contend with the people who strong armed him to take the job, agents sent by Vasilev to intercept him, and the general non-cooperation of his passenger. Despite Valentina's cynical disposition and his resistance to get involved, Frank and Valentina fall for each other, while escaping from one life-threatening situation after another.

Starring: Jason Statham, Natalya Rudakova, Francois Berleand, Robert Knepper, Jeroen Krabbe Directed by: Olivier Megaton
Produced by: Luc Besson, Steve Chasman
Genres: Action/Adventure, Crime/Gangster and Sequel
Running Time: 1 hr. 43 min.
Release Date: November 26th, 2008 (wide)

BETTER IN TIME

It's been the longest winter without you

I didn't know where to turn to

See somehow I can't forget you

After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock

Who's there no one

Thinking that I deserve it

Now I realise that I really didn't know

If you didn't notice you mean everything

Quickly I'm learning to love again

All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you

It's gonna hurt when it heals too

It'll all get better in time

And even though I really love you

I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to

It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV

Without something there to remind me

Was it all that easy

To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh

Hurt my feelings but that's the path

I believe in

And I know that time will heal it

If you didn't notice boy you meant everything

Quickly I'm learning to love again

All I know is I'm gon' to be OK

Since there's no more you and me

It's time I let you go

So I can be free

And live my life how it should be

No matter how hard it is

I'll be fine

Without you

Yes I will

Thanx alot for those memories..deeply appreciate it and will never fade from my mind...

You taught me how great to being loved and here I am now....

it hard to love and to be loved....

but I know that everything will be better in time...

healthy life

starting my day quite late as I slept at 7am...
huhuhu....
act had a phone chat with my dear fwen...
thanx alot!!
really appreciate the moments and hope it will forever...ngett!!:D
nothing much I did and just stayed at home as dont have any feelings to go anywhere..
yea..it was my private time with myself...
nway I did help my fwen to check her result and damn!!!
her result was more 'colours' than me..huhuhu..
btw I had my nap after quite sometime I was successfully managed to skip it...
and unfortunately I was failed today and it all b'coz my late sleep..*wink*
lastly I fulfilled my evening time with d most healthiest activities..
I went jog and played tennis!!!
wuhooo!!
really enjoyed it as I really love to exercise which I neglect it quite sometime bcoz of my commitment towards my studies..ehmmm...
nway my perception towards exercise is not bcoz to become slim but to maintain my body and the most important thing is for the sake of my health...
plus I felt so relaxed and fresh...:)
and thanx alot to mr.rfaidhi as being my bodyguard during the activities...
so let start a healthy life from now on and till forever..:)

s.A.t.i.S.f.A.c.T.i.O.n

there's a full of satisfaction if you get what you want...

instead there will be an amazing satisfaction if you can get closed back with the one you loves and even with the one you admire...

but the most precious satisfaction when you manage to settle out all the problems and arguments with a person so called "FRIEND"....

thanx alot dude for settling all the matters between us which is been dragging for quite sometime..

and now let us start a new chapter of our friendship...

nget2!!!:D

new look...

holala...
anyway today i got a little bit determination+patience+time to update 'all I have to give'..
besides I wear it a new 'dress'!!!huhuhu..:)
act I didnt hv any idea about the style of the 'dress'...
what I did was juz picking any 'dress' that I feel suitable for 'all I have to give'..
ahhhaa..da cm manusia plak aku wat bnda nie...huhuhu...
and hopefully 'all I have to give'.. will like it..*wink*
yea it quite sumtyme I didnt put any thought about my day towards this 'all I have to give'...

mostly all about my feelings and less about what I did..

btw nothing much I did lately...
juz enjoying my holidays by spending tyme with my dearest family+hunny+fwens...
and the most interesting part and also an exhausted thingy dat I did was cleaning my house which is a damnly dusty after some renovation of adding some rooms and also some others maintenance works...
adooii!!!mmg jd wanita sejati la kan...
but anyway I was quite enjoy did it coz I can maintain my body where I can burn lots of calories..hohoho..:)
and the most exciting part after cleaning the house was shopping a new furniture for the new rooms which is actually mama made it for me and my kakcik and also for my bros..
thanx alot mama!!!
ahhhhhaa!!!besh glers shopping furniture...new bed+new curtain+new build in cabinet+and many new thingy..hehehehe..I like!!!!
and lastly obviously I was doing a same thing during d hols which is jogging and dancing!!!!
really2 enjoy it!!!
nway d must-do-list during d hols was obviously spending lots and lots of moments with my hunny...mwahhhh!!!!
so now I think it enough of my thoughts about my life during d hols and obviously will continously update it...:)

bawalah daku pergi

Rindu..rindu...rindu daku saat ini

Ingin jumpa bertegur sapa

Tiada, tiada rasa lebih indah

Bila engkau tersenyum manja

Bawalah daku pergi

Dari gelisah ini

Bawalah daku pergi

Dari sepi hati ini

Bawalah daku pergi

Setulus hati yang suci

Bawalah daku pergi

Biar mati pun ku jalani

Jauh..jauh terasa di hati

Bila engkau tiada di sini

Syahdu..syahdu ucapan mu kasih

Tunggu jika dikau mengungkap kata

~@@##LoNeLiNesS~##@@

Purity once had a name,
And beauty once had a face.
Life once had a meaning,
And once I was safe.

Once there was freedom,
And once I could laugh.
Happiness once was alive,
And once I had another half.

Once I shared his love,
Once I was by his side,
Once I felt I fitted,
So quickly that died.

His love so great,
His care so vast,
All I ever wanted,
Was for it to last.

Now it's all died away,
Happiness, joy, love; all memories.
Now I walk alone in this dark, dark world,
With no light to guide my way
And I still searching..searching and searching in the name of his love....

a piEce of liFe

nget nget!!!!:p
waaahhhaaa!!!d previous post was d most an emotional post ever!!!huhuhu...dun know what should I do and what should I say about dat terrible and 'haunted' college...so I only can share it towards dis 'all I have to give'...thanx blogger!!!:)
nway there were still a same routine dat I did during dis week.the thing dat I can say was my life really terrible with the environment in dat college and especially d f*** rules of that place.damnly pist off!!!fuhh!!!
besides...there still got some space for me to appreciate d moments of my life...
yea obviously d only thing dat encourage me to survive and strong was exactly my truly 'senget' fwens!!!aahhhaaa....ms.c-keen+ms.nona+ms.ana+ms.nisah and all my tesl gurls!!!thanx alots gurls!!u all give a space for me to breath!!!and btw I also had a new seat of president in a Babe In Total Control of Herself Club (B.I.T.C.H)..hohoho:P ..so wutch up gurls out there and do join dis fabulous club!!*wink*....
btw at last I was having a great fwenship moments wif my B.I.T.C.H tesl gurls after 2 years having a truly bond with them...went to MP and having a great joyous wifth them...bowl+shop+eat+laugh+gossiping..~hohoho~:p...nsib beik la kaki nie ada lg..hahaha:))...and d most interesting part was I'd met mr.usop a.k.a mr,spark!!!!ahhhaaaa!!!lawak glers....actually already wanna went back.d moment MP's entrance door open and out of no where mr.usop was in front of me.!!addoooii!!!!aku mmg x cm muslimah sejati la plak kan...btw aku cm lupe diri ckit la kan kalo da jmpe kekasih gelap aku nie...huhuhu...nway I was dangerously happy bto see him as he was my greatest buddy eva!!!:))nget nget!!!:p...
and lastly there's nothing much about my lectures...so far so good...nway really had a great moment during high jump activities with daddy marzuki cool!!:)

##piSt oFF!!!!##

aarrrggghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
damn!!!!what a terrible+haunted+f***place!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
extremely and dangerously hate to stay there!!!!!!!:((
a damn stupid rules++poor water+all d bastard jpp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!serioulsy feel like stay in d 10th century!!!then recently there was no electricity!!!!perghh!!!mmg cm duduk kt ulu!!!!!!hardly to explain how terrible my life there....exactly live in a hell!!!!!!
everybody's hobby was controlling and annoying and interrupting others people's life!!!aiyyookk!!!please la..dun u have ur own life to take care???why must to interfere and touching d others people's 'world'????why????????????????????????a full of hatred my life there......:((
cant stand at all having my life there....and cant hardly wait to go to iium!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
please.......bring me far...far and far away from dat 'hell'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!@@####

NADIA

Proudly present a song of my name...Nadia....:)

Nadia kau keindahan wanita

Pujaan setiap pria

Seluruh dunia kau gapai

Tetapi dirimu kini terhanyut

Di lautan kesedihan

Sadar tinggalkan dirimu yg sudah

Merasa raih segalanya

Memang takkan semudah dirimu

Balikkan telapak tangan

Kadang kau pun harus merasakan

Pahit manisnya dunia

Ku ingin bawamu dengan nyanyian

Ombak dan nyiur di pantai

Kan kubisikkan cinta

Nadia ku damba kau sejak dulu

Yakinlah pada diriku

Kau hanya sebutir mutiara indah

Di tengah luas samudera

Ku kan menjadi sang pangeranmu

Yang ada dalam mimpimu

Bahagiakan dirimu selamanya

Dalam kasih abadi

Nadia ku damba kau sejak dulu

Yakinlah pada diriku

Kau hanya sebutir mutiara indah

Di tengah luas samudera

and I glad to be NADIA...thanx mama abah for this lovely name..:)

^@@###^confused+blurr###@@^

Everythings so silent

I cant hear a voice

So many feelings

I was so confused

Crying so softly

So I cant be heard

Everythings so confusing

Every little word



So many nights

Where I cant sleep

Dreaming of how much

Why I was so meaningful to you

I don't have anything

I was such an ordinary girl

Have lots of weaknesses

Still got many things to learn

Asking myself

Is this how I feel

Closing my eyes

On everything real

You were so kind to me

Really patient towards me

Acccept me as what I am

And your love is endless

Wishing and praying

Wanting to know

Why you care for me

Why you cant let me go?

Eyes filled with the tears

Heart filled with the fears

Mind so confused

Why do you still love me?

It make me feel so confused

No where to go

Don't know what should I do

And it make me lost

Everyones told me

I cant feel this way

I told you goodbye

Yet you need me to stay



I was so cruel

make me really heartless

Yet I ws so confused

What actually I feel



Standing in place

For such a long time

I cant figure out

Why you want me to be yours???



Ive broken your heart

And left you to cry

I feel so useless

But I cant say goodbye

and I just need some space

~ayAt~ayAt C.I.N.T.A.

Desir pasir di padang tandus

Segersang pemikiran hati

Terkisah ku di antara cinta yang rumit

Bila keyakinanku datang

Kasih bukan sekadar cinta

Pengorbanan cinta yang agung

Ku pertaruhkan

Maafkan bila ku tak sempurna

Cinta ini tak mungkin ku cegah

Ayat-ayat cinta bercerita

Cintaku padamu

Bila bahagia mulai menyentuh

Seakan ku bisa hidup lebih lama

Namun harus ku tinggalkan cinta

Ketika ku bersujud

Bila keyakinanku datang

Kasih bukan sekedar cinta

Pengorbanan cinta yang agung

Ku pertaruhkan

iM yOurS

well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
now I'm trying to get back
before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
nothin's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more
no more it cannot wait, I'm yours

well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
ah la peaceful melody
it's your godforsaken right to be loved love loved love love

so I won't hesitate no more
no more it cannot wait I'm sure
there's no need to complicate
our time is short
this is our fate, I'm yours

I been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
and bendin over backwards just to try to see it clearer
my breath fogged up the glass
and so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm sayin is there ain't no better reason
to rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
it's what we aim to do
our name is our virtue

but I won't hesitate no more
no more it cannot wait I'm sure

there's no need to complicate
our time is short
it cannot wait, I'm yours

^_^ sibuk la kau ^_^

sibuk la kau!!!!!!!sibuk la kau!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
kejap!!!!kejap!!!!kejap!!!!
aahhhaaaa!!!!!:p...someone is getting crazy in here...~hohoho~
ermmm extremely and dangerously miss those moments!!!!!!!!!!!!:((
nway all along dis week my mind and memories of last weekend was superbly fresh in my mind...not only me but also ms.c-keen...hopefully it will happened again..again and again....:)
ok2....let forget about those memories and now focus on the study...
nthg much I did during dis week...just alot of discussion..discussion and discussion...
adooii!!!hectic!!!:but beside dat it quite heaven my timetable...not really pack and obviously got a plenty of sleeping time...adooii!!!dmok la sy!!!uwaa!!!:((
btw I had some conflicts lately..hard to explain but only my heart can feel it...
ermm I need some space to think further about it...coz once I decide I cant turn back...and dat d 'karma' in life...always looking forward and what u'd give..u will get back...so obviously I really2 need a space and tyme to think about my feelings and heart.....hopefully HE always be with me to light my life....to show which road should I choose and who's heart should I belong to...amin...
yeaayyy!!!!at last mama abah came back home!!!yaahhhooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!miss them so much!!!!!
so as usual there will be lots of chocolates!!!!wuuhhhoooo!!!!and d most of all my present from kcik!!!yea obviously a gorgeous GUESS handbag!!!!!thanx kcik!!!!!!!!!!!!love u so much!!!!:))nway mama abah had lots and lots of story to share with me...penat gak la dgr cite dorg..adooii!!..huhuhu..:p,....ermmm extremely envy especially after looked at all of their pics there!!!!uwaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!:((
btw I feel so thankful and relieved after I saw d happiness of mama abah....and thumbs up to kcik and alang as make their life so meaningful...and hopefully I also will be the one who will make them proud and happy again for d rest of their life...that only I can do to repay back for all of their sacrifices and love that they'd give to me even I know that it will be not enough as compared to what they did to me....:)

##nGet nGet##

nget nget!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ahhahhaaa......it sound silly and weird...but actually it really2 meaningful to me...it reminds me to my truly fwenz...mr.usop+mr.syafiq+mr.ajib....:)

nway I had mentioned my plan during dis weekend in my last post...so now I would like to share some of d memories about it...jeng jeng....nget nget!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:p

kay today I woke up quite late as day was so gloomy wif non -stop raining since morning...besh cgt2 sleep!!!wuuhhoooo!!))...but beside dat I'm not really enjoy my sleep coz I was keep thinking about my plan during dis weekend as I was d project manager of d plan...huhuhu....

so early in d morning,my main actor sent me a msg and told me dat he couldnt came back coz it was rain heavily....arrghhh!!it made me felt so pressure...then I tried to contact my assistant project manager but he didnt picked-up d phone...arrghhh!!add on more d pressure!!:(..and lastly luckily my mr.supporter msg me and asked me about d plan...thanx mr.supporter!!!!love yea!!:p....

btw I still dun give-up to call my assistant project manager and after a few tymes he picked-up d phone..btw he was still in iium and had to send his fwen to clinic.nway he promised dat he will try his best to come back..so it made me felt quite released...:)ermmm....around 12pm my actor sent me another msg and informed dat he couldnt went back coz there're still raining!!!aarrghhh!!!then I tried to confirm again wif my assistant again either he could go back or not.but unfortunately, I juz could speak to his 'gf ' who telling me to call him again..huhuhu....arrghh!!!damn!!!I felt totally give-up and juz decide to hang-out wif mr.supporter...and even d actress a.k.a ms.c-keen also didnt want to put any hope anymore to see mr.syapiq..we now juz depend on fate!!!so around 2pm mr.usop fetched me and ms.c-keen..

aaahhhaaa!!!!my smile was coming back to me again once I went inside mr.usop's car!!!yeaaa...as usual my mr.usop was extremely funny wif those of his jokes...:))..and obviously he made ms.c-keen kept smiling and it non-stop k....aahhhaaa..:))...suke suki jek si usop tue tegur makcik2..kakak2 and sape2 jek la makhluk yg die jmpe kt tepi jalan.adooii!!!smpai malu la aku ngn c-keen!!!:p...btw we still managed to make a surprised for ms.c-keen!!!huhuhu...:p...mr.usop and me brought ms.c-keen to mr.syapiq's house and waiting for him there...and at last d drama begin....huhuhu...mr.syapiq and ms.c-keen met each other!!!!yeaayyyy!!!!!:))so we went to jj and all along d way there we juz laugh..laugh and laugh!!!!aaahhhhaaaa!!!!;))

nway I still couldnt contact my assistant project manager a.k.a mr.ajib...aiiyookkk!!!where had u been dude????:(...but luckily mr.usop was keep giving me laugh..laugh and laugh!!!!

I bought a 'The Dark Knight'....unluckily there're only few seats left and it was in 2 rows from in front...addooii!!!btw no choice so I juz bought it...then we quite blurr for awhile as d movie will start in 2 hours tyme..nget nget!!!!!so we used dat moment to laugh...laugh and laugh...+starbux+mcd....nway mr.usop was non-stop teasing ms.ckeen and mr.syapiq....aahhhaaa!!!ha!!!ape pegang2 tangan nie..aahhhhhaaa!!!:))

yeaayyyyy!!!at last mr.ajib came!!!even though he was really2 rushed from kl...thanx alot!!!!damnly appreciate!!so now complete!!!!!!!!!!we went to d movie...btw once we're complete,ethg was chaos!!!!kecoh glers!!!dlm cinema memekak x abis!!!addoii!!but it really2 unforgetable moments!!!:))perghh!!!!mmg x leh bla la kan duk depan...mmg sakit gler2+lenguh tahap dewa!!!adoooiii!!and at last berakhir jua penyeksaan kami sume!!!!but till now I still could felt d backache!!!addoooiii!!!

it tyme to say goodbye!!!:((..and dis tyme mr.ajib was sending ms.c-keen and me back!!!uwaa!!:((...but before dat I still can laugh..laugh and laugh!!!ha!!!nk blik pn nk kiss ke??!!!huhuhu...:p...and suddenly out of control,ms.c-keen had bumped mr.ajib's car door to his leg!!!aahhhaa!!cian mr.ajib...and at last d moments was over!!!!:((

ermm felt dangerously sad and I felt to rewind ethg back if I had d power to do so...it was really2 dangerously and extremely a precious tyme!!!thanx alot my beloved gorgeous fwens..mr.usop+mr.ajib+mr.syapiq!!!u all guys make me and also ms.c-keen laugh..laugh..and laugh!!:))...even till now ms.c-keen was keeping smiling...smiling and smiling..:))..thanx alot guys!!!I love u all so much and forever!!!!and I really cheerish dis truly fwenship from d bottom of my chaste heart...:)till we meet again....and I always counting d days to see all of u guys again..again..and again....:)

~sEPi~

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##sibuk la kau!!!##

sibuk la kau!!!!!ahhahhaaa!!!what an annoying word???huhuhu...:p

yea dat d irritating 'sibuk la kau' came from mr.nget2!!!hehehehe..:)

ermmm....yea dis was d 2nd week of my life as a b.ED tesl student....alots d courseworks and assignments were just chasing towards me....fuhhh!!!hectic.....a really2 long hours of lecture+unnecessarily subjects which I think are not really relevant towards my b.Ed tesl courses...and nway it juz only in my thought but not d bpg..arrghhh!!!!!
btw beside d hectic life,I still got some space and moments for me to relax my mind by surfing d internet+gossiping wif my gurls+be a 'poco2' instructor...huhuhu.....

nway today was my kakcik's convocation!!!argh!!!God plez bring me to Queensland now!!!damnly wanna see my kakcik's convo.nway congratz kcik!!!at last u'd get ur Master and finally you got an oppurtunity to experience d study life at abroad.really2 proud of you.and obviously deep inside my heart I was really2 ENVY of you...btw I'll swear to myself dat one day I will be like you too!!!!!btw it already 1 year my kcik stayed there and finally she got her Master which she really2 work hard for it.even though wif all d obstacles and challenges and also d conflict that involving about heart and love.congratz sis!!!u're really2 a superb young woman!!!chayok2!!!beside there's a thing that really2 challenge me when abah sent me a msg and said..'abah in kcik's convo now.really2 great.kcik look pretty and smart..'!!!fuhhh!!!dat msg damnly challenge me and make me swear to myself dat one day abah will sent d same msg to all my siblings and telling them dat...'abah in NADIA"S CONVOCATION.it damnly superb and fantastic.NADIA LOOK PRETTY&SMART...!!'yea I'll swear it to myself now.insyallah I will try to work hard for it.btw now I must focus on my b.ED tesl courses first.hope ethg will goes fine and smoothly...:)

and now I was having my weekend at my home sweet home!!!!yeeaaahhhooo!!!!nway I have some interesting plan wif my beloved fwens..and I also be the project manager and my assistant is mr.nget2..and last but not least d main actor is mr.syafiq and d actress is ms.c-keen!!!:p...and lastly d supporters is mr.usop!!!:)so wait for d latest update of dis precious story...*wink*

it all about LOVE

Love is miracle and obviously the most great thing on this earth....
yet love can be a dissaster and the most bad thing to us....
Love give the whole happiness in this world....
yet love also give an infinity sadness in this life....
Love bring the joy....
yet love bring the pressure...
Love make us be a wonderful human....
and love can make us a killer.....
and because of love we die.........

~L.I.F.E.~

Sometimes I can see myself running.....

But what am I running from?

I'm running from life.

It's impossible to get away.

Sometimes I wish I could just close my eyes,

And then things would be different.

I just want to be somebody.

I don't know if I can, but I'll try.

I've messed up in my life more then once.

But at least I'm still alive.

But do I want to be?

Yes . . . I do.

People mess up all the time.

It's no reason to just run away.

If you do, your problems will wait for you.

You just gotta move on.

You have to except what you've done.

Just can't sit and feel sorry for yourself.

Life's not that bad.

It's what you make it out to be.

There will be good and bad times.

Sometimes more bad then good.

Either way it's life.

I would never want to change my life.

Even though I've messed up in the past.

I think it made me a stronger person.

So instead of running,

I'll stay and take life as it is!!

a story of a girl

hhhoooollllaaaa!!!!!!!!!

erm...firstly I like to tell a little bit of story about a girl named nadia@yaya since I juz started my writings in this 'all I have to give'....hope you all enjoy to read it..huhuhu..:)

yea...my name nadia.people love to call me as yaya..:) 12 april was my birthday.and this year i was 20 years old..im still a young bright girl...*wink*...i am a daughter of mr.mohd nasir and mrs.khalidah.i have a superb happy family which consists of four bros and a sis and also three sis-in-laws.nway now i also a 'mak teh' for my 3 nephews and 3 nieces which is they are my 'nyawa'.i damnly love them!!!:)

my biggest inspiration

btw i had a cute and nothy childhood in Seremban which is my hometown.i started my early education in sk ampangan.then i experienced many challenges and sweet moments in my teenage life in smk seri ampangan and lastly smk king george v. and then i started to manage my future in a next level in education.i went to matriks for 2 months only coz i cant stand with the studies atmosphere there...non stop cried k???huhuhu..so i need to quit from there even i damnly interested in account.luckily i got offer in tesl twinning programme.so i pursued it in malaca girls teaching college and twinning with international islamic university malaysia.im so happy coz i still get my favourite course.so it will another 4 years to go for me to be a 'Teacher Nadia'..huhuhu..:)yea..everything happend it must be a reason..:)and even i juz wanna start my first year degree yet i have lots of plan in my future especially to be a lecturer one day...oit!!!be a teacher first k before be a lecturer....erm it doesnt wrong for us to have a dream aite???hehehehe..:p nway wish me luck....:)
lastly,im happy with every single thing in my life now...i enjoy every moments that i have and obviously i appreciate it.and also i love each person that come into my life.u're welcome!!!so...till we meet again in my latest update...~XOXOXO~